As most of you know my twin boys Logan and Steven passed away 5 months ago, I am still deeply grieving. I have a full time job, part time job, organizations I am involved with and lots of hobbies. I am busy. You might see me laughing, smiling, working, playing or just simply "enjoying life." Don't let this fool you. My heart is broken and will NEVER be whole again, my soul has been torn out and ripped apart. Our lives have been turned upside down by experiencing the worst thing ever, losing our children. We had to say goodbye before saying hello, before kissing, holding,talking or playing with our children. We didn't get to hear their cries or giggles. With this being said DO NOT bring your newborn babies around me, do not talk to me about how excited you are about being pregnant. If I approach you about your baby or pregnancy that's one thing but be considerate that not every one in the world is excited. There are a lot of mothers and fathers who have lost children and are not comfortable with you flaunting it. I'm just asking that you think twice. This is where i'm at in my life right now and I can not physically or emotionally deal with newborns or pregnant women. So I ask that you don't flaunt it. I'm not saying I cant look at newborns or pregnant women just don't approach me and talk to me about it because I am not interested. I'm very thankful for those who have healthy pregnancies and babies but I didn't so please back off. I say this in the nicest way possible.
