TheTorbettFamily: *SURVIVING MOTHERS DAY 2014*

I know Mothers day has come and gone but I guess better late than never....

Honestly, I was really dreading this day, the day where children make things for their mommies and mommies are told happy Mothers day and are showered with gifts and goodies. I had been dreading this day for a whole week. I didn't want the "looks" from people and I didn't want questions from people. If it wasn't for my amazing husband I don't think I would have survived this day.

We started out celebrating Mothers day on Saturday by purchasing some new cars. We were way past due for some and to be honest the ones we had were about to die. So we spent 8 hours at the dealership. That was pretty fun. We wanted to buy a family car so that's exactly what we got and I couldn't help but think how perfect it would be for our twins.The things we could all do and all the places we could all go together.

On Sunday, Mothers day we started out with breakfast at Cracker Barrel where we sat across twin boys which we believe were Logan and Steven saying hi. I always love randomly seeing twin boys but always it breaks my heart too. Then we headed down to the Georgia Aquarium. Josh and I both have really been wanting to go there for a while. It was awesome. It was amazing to see some of the fish we have at home at the Aquarium. I have always been an animal lover and iv'e always enjoyed going out and seeing different types of animals. I couldn't help but think how I should have been pushing around our double stroller with our 6 month old identical twins. Yes, I was having fun and loved spending time with my husband but it took everything I had not to break down and cry because a huge part of me was missing and I knew I would never get them back. People kept asking me "Are you a mother?" And before I could answer, Josh would say "Yes she is." and people would just say "Well Happy Mothers Day." He was so sweet. I know i'm a mother but being asked that question rips my soul apart because I just want my babies here with us. Its not fair. A parent should never outlive their children. I know our babies were with us enjoying the fish and all but its still so hard and painful. I have to find the strength every single day and get up and live life. So, all I can say is that I survived Mothers day.